As you explore this site, I hope that you are encouraged, challenged, and inspired
to embrace both who you are, and who you are becoming.
When depression hit at 6 years old, the world as I knew it flipped on its head. I thought for sure that there was no way God loved me. When anxiety, body image issues, and panic attacks started to creep in at the age of 11 years old; I felt utterly alone. I tried to hide in sports and learned to put on a façade that kept people from seeing the wreck that I was. As I struggled to hold it all together, like a delicate egg, I was sexually assaulted at the age of 13, at church, during service. I shattered. I became angry. Angry at God, angry at people, angry with myself. As I got older, I thought there was no feeling worse than what I already carried around, for anger had become a consuming fire; but then I met a place called despair. A place where what was worse than feeling, was not to be able to feel at all. I was verbally and sexually assaulted over the years and I tried to hide the pain in alcohol, parties, drugs, anything to remain numb. These led to a deeper spiral downward and clinical depression kicked in at the age of 18. I lost hope and my sense of self-worth. I did not know if tomorrow was a day I would live to see, for I contemplated suicide more often than I care to admit. I was sure that I was alone in this world, done with God, done with myself; until some radical changes beyond my control began to happen. In my last ditch attempt when I hit rock bottom, I turned my face to a wall and said “God, help.” From that point forward, I could no longer control the situations around me, I could simply make choices. Jeremiah 29:11 settled deep within my heart “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope”. Though it made no sense then, I was prompted to write in the midst of my pain, in the midst of my storm, in the no sense everything made. And here, I share these pieces with you.
Each blog post is a window to the inner being. Each blog post challenges you to look within and get closer to your heart. Explore the blog posts, reflect, and take some time to reconnect with your authentic self.
As an educator (M.Ed.), speaker, and writer; identity, self, and self-worth, are some of the topics I teach about. Teaching, speaking, and writing has enabled me to work with various local and global organizations in the area of community development, and advocacy. These organizations serve individuals who are from marginalized communities, individuals with special needs, and youth who have no access to basic social services like educational support, health care or job training. This understanding that resource and opportunities are simple blessings we often overlook gave birth to a God-sized dream that is meant to change the world – Check out The Million Dollar Testimony